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A letter to the public in case I am murdered
I can't believe I'm about to turn 26. This has been the worst year of my life. Never did I think it was possible to receive so many threats against my life for attempting to create social change within a tiny subculture. Never did I think that I would get raped and that this would cause people in this tiny subculture to turn this traumatic experience into a joke.
Two weeks after I was raped this "big time producer" was threatening to have me gang raped. I guess he found it funny. I called the police and they said the same thing that they usually did. "We can't do anything because it's out of state." Of course it's out of state. It's a violent gang of neo-nazi's who have physically attacked me before. One of them set my clothes on fire and then violently beat the shit out of me. I was told that if I did anything about this I would be murdered.
These people aren't simply in New York. Or Los Angeles. Or Pittsburgh. They're scattered like fleas. It's not just internet drama. Quit saying that it's just internet drama. It's massive industry mobbing. It's playing with my life. It has happened at my own gigs. It has happened at clubs I've attended. My own mother has received death threats.
"Just ignore them." Just ignore threats against my life? Just ignore one attack after another? How is that supposed to solve anything? "Just focus on your music." I am focusing on my music but I'm afraid to release it. The better I do with my music the more these people attack me. "Just move on." I'm sorry but that's weak. How am I supposed to move on after all of this? Why should I? Would you?
People say that I'm making everything up and that I've gone psychotic. What have I made up? Even the police have looked at the evidence. They feel bad for me. That's what they say. "We feel bad for you but unfortunately there is nothing that we can do to help you." This is not a publicity stunt. It's the legal system unwilling to help me because this gang is scattered throughout this entire country: because there isn't enough money to be made in such a tiny industry: because I don't have enough money to give.
My friends are worried about me. They send me messages of support. They mean the world me. They tell me to keep going. That I shouldn't let these people bring me down. That they know what this is like. I have an entire army behind me but who is going to stop this gang from playing with my life? When is it going to end? Will it ever?
People say that by making posts like this I am "giving them what they want." Maybe yes and maybe no. Does that mean I don't have the right to express how I feel? People say that I am "playing victim." Where is the act? Where is the stage? I don't see myself playing anything.
All I want for my birthday is money. Maybe that sounds selfish but until I get a certain amount of money I will have no way of getting any legal assistance. I have exhausted every possible option. It all comes down to me not having enough money to receive legal help. What if they actually kill me? What if this could have been prevented by the authorities? Who will be to blame?
If I end up getting killed I will have this post as a final record of what has been going on. People will know the truth. The only thing I can hope is that the truth will not be drowned out by this violent gang that has been fucking with my life and career for the past 4 years. Even now I am afraid to say who they are. Yet many people know who they are. If I end up getting killed these people will go to jail for the rest of their lives. I don't want to get murdered (does anyone?) but these people definitely deserve to go to jail. Will they? Who knows? They seem to know how to manipulate the law pretty well. They have done this to other people. I'm definitely not the first. I would like to be the last but not at the expense of my own existence. |
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| Tonight, November 15: Malediction Society Presents The Military Fashion Show in Los Angeles! |
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| 09:14am 15/11/2009 |
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Tonight - November 15 - Malediction Society honors the brave men and women of the military by presenting The Military Fashion Show at the Monte Cristo, L.A.'s most elegant night venue: 10:00 p.m. - 2:00 a.m. Celebrate Veteran's Day weekend on the spacious dance floor as DJ Xian and DJ Amanda Jones spin the finest in goth, industrial, EBM, and darkwave.
Military uniforms are encouraged, and at midnight, there will be a costume contest on the patio for tickets to see Skinny Puppy and Royksopp...Free entry with military ID...See you there...
Malediction Society: The Military Fashion Show at the Monte Cristo
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Los Angeles, CA 90010
(just east of the Metro Redline station at Wilshire Blvd. and Vermont Ave.)
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SUNDAY, NOVEMBER 15TH (21+)
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Every Sunday in Los Angeles
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MILITARY COSTUME CONTEST
FOR SKINNY PUPPY TICKETS
@ MIDNIGHT!!! (on the patio)
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| 02:41pm 15/11/2009 |
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mood:  blah music: Spencer Davis Group - Gimme Some Lovin
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The movie "2012" pretty much met my expectations exactly. There are some spectacular special effects but very little to actually care about. The film is populated with character-types rather than characters so its difficult to work up any empathy for the victims and survivors of the catastrophe portrayed.
The early sequence of the destruction of California is chock full of stunning imagery. The scale of destruction is staggering but the CG still manages to include human-scale details, but ultimately its like watching a fireworks display - there is plenty of well choreographed explosions but ultimately nothing moves you.
I could have written this review before I saw the film and little would have changed, make of that what you will. I guess I just like the fireworks. |
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| New computer... |
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| 06:54pm 14/11/2009 |
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Thinking of upgrading the desktop. I have a few options to work with too. Mostly I use my desktop for gaming and editing my photos. Same thing I use my laptop for as well. I've been looking at www.chipsandmemory.com for my next purchase. Trying to decide if I should go pre built or build myself. The other thing is to go fully portable and get the laptop and a docking station for home use.
The laptop would be this one: $799
- Intel Core2 Quad 2Ghz
- 6GB DDR2 Memory
- 640GB Hard Drive
- Blu-Ray Combo Drive
- 17" WXGA 1920*1200 TFT LCD
- nVidia GTX 260M 1GB Video
- 8 Cell Lithium-Ion Battery
- Wireless LAN
- AC Adapter
- Windows 7 Home Premium Installed
- 1-year Limited Hardware Warranty
The desktop would be this one: $799 (With the 1TB HD Upgrade... its faster than the provided 500G provided and twice the size.)
- Intel Core i7 Quad Processor
- Asus P6T-SE Motherboard with Intel X58 Express Chipset
- Or Asus P6TD Deluxe.......................................add $80
- 3 GB DDR3 1333 Memory Triple Channel
- Or 6 GB DDR3 1333 Memory Triple Channel.....add $60
- 500 GB 16 MB SATA2 Hard Drive
- Or 150GB VelociRaptor SATA2 Hard Drive....add $130
- Or 1 TB 32MB SATA2 Hard Drive.....................add $50
- nVidia 9500GT 1GB PCI-Express
- Or ATI HD 5750 1GB.........................................add $70
- Or nVidia 9800GT 1GB.....................................add $70
- Coolermaster Case with Power Supply
- Sound, USB 2.0 and Gigabit LAN
- 20x DVD±RW Dual Layer SATA
- 1-Year Parts and Labor Warranty
Core i7 920 2.66 Ghz 8MB Cache.....................$799
Both will do what I want and are the same price. The desktop is slightly better chip set but lacks the portability. Any hardware people see an advantage of one over the other?
I could easily sell my existing desktop for $300 and my Vaio for the same. Plus I should see what I can do with the other desktops I have laying around. Pretty sure they only need a HD and some memory. Plus once Ducky gets the new myth box running I'll have another shuttle ready to go. So anyone need a new computer? Anyone have any iBooks they might want to trade? This will definitely get rid of some of the unused computer stuff I have.
Found a neat little app for my iTouch. Kitty! Which makes cat sounds to annoy the hell out your cat or dog. They kitten cry makes Gunter flip out and go into mommy mode. I had the sound on and the the iTouch under the pillows on my bed and she freaked out looking for it. Even called out to it in the chattering voice cats do. Was adorable to see her do this. I'm pretty sure this means she would accept a kitten but not an adult cat.
This has nothing to do with anyone here. I told 3 people something recently and now a smaller group of people are avoiding me online and in public. Don't worry I scraped and am no longer supporting. I really wish I knew what the people told them. I'm certain it was not what I told them and I'll bet I know who blew it up. Sad part is no ones asked me about it personally. It's not even that big of a deal and I'm doing what they've been crying about doing for the past 3 years. Remember kiddies anonymous posting is allowed but I still have ips logged.
Nov 21st is coming up. SDPD interview. I mailed my CHP acknowledgment out.
Found out I can keep my EDD while getting SSDI. That will help as it will be more income. I do need to start with holding tax before I get too much in and actually have to pay on my already paid taxes.
Going to go to Hawaii next year with the family. I would love to go to Hawaii. I am, however, not looking forward to the flight there.
Borderlands is fun. Haven't touched WoW in a week and honestly I'm not really looking forward to going back to it. If BL can keep content coming we might have a winner here. Sucks too cause Mike, Cybian, Michelle and Joe are leveling toons to play. Think I'll end my subscription which is up on Dec 22nd. Honestly Cataclysm doesn't look all that. It's just a reworking of old content and nothing really "new". Maybe I'll get it when it comes out and restart the sub again... Who knows. I'll see if I can get the Lore Master title before Dec 22nd.
November is officially Patvember. The official holiday is now Nov 12th which is going to be called Cats Day and will be celebrated at Disneyland. I need a logo and an anthem for this day. Celebration period will start the Monday prior to the 12th and will last one full week. Official holiday colors will be clack, orange, green and purple. Red will be allowed but only as blood stains. No spandex. Anyone not having fun will be ousted indefinitely. Those holding birthdays in the month of Patvember will be able to make their own holiday functions as well as join in with the celebration of Cats Day. Have fun. Slow down. Relax.
This just in: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fErbxtKMOWM
Thanks to Namey! Hilarious and Work Safe!
Disneyland in December! Looking to go on any one of these days. 1,2,3,4,6,7,8,9,10,11,13,14,15,16,17 or the 18th. Park hours are extended and it looks like after the 3rd they are open till 11pm and 12am on Fri/Sun. I would think a Sunday trip would be in order here soon. 6th or the 13th. Full Xmas decor is up, fireworks and the parade are also happening. Only thing I need to watch is when my mom is making us go to Knotts for Xmas which is going to be the 5th, 12th or 19th of Dec. At that point I'l just get a hotel up there if it coincides with a Dland trip. Which if anyone wants to take the train up I'd be willing to share a room.
For those that like to mock people and or things here ya go. Have fun.
http://ugliesttattoos.com/
Not even 7PM and I'm bored. Nothing to do and I really don't feel like going to Sabbat. Maybe a movie.
Don't forget the PhotoExpo West is this weekend! While Saturday is over there is Sunday. I'll be heading there in the late morning say 10-11'ish. The Raffles are at 1245-1pm and there's some nice stuff being raffled off. I'm mostly going to look at the Delkin Pop Up Shade and the protective cover for my camera. Hoping I win the $200 gift certificate for the Tamron lens! Any how if ya like to come with or meet up there let me know. Parking is $9 and they're asking $10 at the door (allows you to get in to seminars). |
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| 06:06pm 14/11/2009 |
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mood:  accomplished
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Excuse me while I stroke my own ego, but I AM COMPLETELY MADE OF AWESOME.
I made a purse out of a magazine.
( So not kidding. )
And the sad thing is... I don't even use purses. But now I'm tempted to start just because I like this one so much.
Granted, it's not perfect [I had to staple the handles a little so they didn't rip apart], and I have to find a better way to work with the zipper, but I like it. YAY ME. |
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| 04:31pm 14/11/2009 |
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Thanksgiving is coming up! Yay!
That means that Black Friday is coming up too. I will spend Black Friday not shopping.
I still get a sick feeling thinking of that poor man trampled to death at Wal-Mart last year. I am so thankful not to be working in retail.
I once worked with a lady (Theoni!) who said that if she ever gets out of working in retail, she might spend the day bringing food and/or coffee to retail employees under siege. I think this is a great idea.
Of course, given the recession retail employees may not be as besieged as usual. |
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| THUD: Ceremony Monday Night! |
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| 02:27pm 14/11/2009 |
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November 16th
- THUD! -
Boston's premier new Industrial/EBM dance event.
DJs Shivar & Static
Remember, remember, the Yarm of November 9-10 PM
Ceremony @ An Tua Nua
835 Beacon St
Boston MA
21+
9pm - 1am
$5
FREE Before 9:30!! |
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